Scoliosis of the Spine
My second Journey with a chronic health condition was losing strength in my arms and/or legs. This started around 11 or 12 as I started to grow faster. Chronic back pain was a constant companion. At barely 13, the doctors did tests and told me that I have a chronic condition and wouldn’t be able to walk after the age of 30. There was no sugar coating of this reality. Just that they would operate and fuse my spine with metal, and that I would have pain forever. Looking back on this moment, I suspect that my response to them was the first time I channelled. Mostly because I am absolutely certain that I would not have had the courage to say to them what I did.
I asked them what would happen if I said ‘No’. They said you would be in a wheelchair as an adult. I then asked a very strange question of ‘would I still be able to bungee jump’. They laughed at me and said, ‘ I don’t see why not, you never know, the jolt might straighten you out’. To which I replied, ‘Well then, if a bungy can straighten me out, maybe I can find something else that will too. I think I will decline the operation, thank you all the same’. I stood to leave and shook the doctor’s hand, and left. My mother was so surprised by my calm response that she just thanked the doctor and followed me out. She said afterwards how proud she was of me and how cool my response was. I thought this was odd, because it was most certainly not me who had been talking to the doctor, but if it made mum happy, then it was good.
As a teenager, driving for more than 20 minutes would be excruciating. I learnt that good friends didn’t care and that good people would stand with you regardless. I learnt that even with one leg much shorter than the other, I could still feel good about my body. I could still feel strong or sexy. I learnt to celebrate the body I had.
At 19, I started to study as a healer and explore the alternative healing options. After getting whiplash in a car accident, I rang every healer I could find. I asked- what do you do, how does it work, how long does it take, and how much does it cost? I then asked them which other healers they would recommend. I made a very detailed and interesting spreadsheet of the data I had collected. Eventually, this process led me to a very short Chinese lady in Cuba Mall, Wellington. She said, “You will never understand what you have not experienced. You come, and I will give you two free sessions, you will feel it and then understand it”.
The boy I was dating at the time was an unattractive personality, controlling, and a nightmare. He was one inch taller than me and twice my size. He delivered me to both sessions, partly, I think, to make sure I wasn’t going anywhere else. The first session was lovely. It was holistic pulsing. Gentle rocking of the body to rebalance the water energy in the body. Still one of my favourite things to receive.
The second session went deeper. As is often the way with healings. My boyfriend delivered me to the door and came back to pick me up. As we walked back out into the mall to meet his friends, one of them commented that I looked taller. They all stopped and studied me. Sure enough, I was now one inch taller than my boyfriend. The healing had straightened my back enough that I was 2 inches taller.
Their solution to this was to stand in a circle around me and have 8 19-year-old ‘men’ put their hands on my shoulders and jump into the air together, in an effort to shrink me back down. This did not work. They then suggested a long drive and an overnight camping trip, knowing that in the past this would have crippled me. When all of their efforts failed, the group decided that the only course of action was for my boyfriend to break up with me, because you couldn’t have a girlfriend who was taller than you.
What did I learn from this? -
The universe can find beautiful ways to rescue us from idiots, if we let it.
Anything can be healed if we let ourselves receive
My backbone is what holds me upright and holds my strength. It will get stronger as my inner strength gets stronger, too
No one can shrink me if I don’t want them to.
All the cells in my spine will replace themselves within a year. So they can
replace themselves with cells that are straight and strong
Over time, I did many types of healing to straighten my spine and become stronger within myself. Little bit by little bit, it came right. My legs are now an equal length, and I’m in my 50s and still dancing. My spine is mostly straight, if we ignore bad posture. It is not strong and still has its days of being an irritation. However, in comparison to where I could have been?? I am grateful for the strength I have.